Cupid hit me like a frantic, one day I was normal and sober, the next day I was all swollen from love bug bites. It's all about timing, just whoever showed up at that moment when my heart is filled with love, desire and readiness, one pinch, it all leaked out. Or is it, just about timing. How came he said all the right things that no guys before or after him has said, how came he brought me the excitement, happiness that I've longed for and deserved for so long.  I think I'm in love, but how can I tell when love has failed me so many times, and I no longer know what love is, no longer believe in my emotions. I hated it when I feel restless, insecure, worried and needy. I don't do love no more, I can't afford love when I'm the only person of my family here, when love means devoting all that I have to this one person. It's scary, it hasn't served me well, I remember the moments that it make me fly like a bird, but not more than the heart piercing pain it brought me. How can I fall in love when i no longer believe in love?